New Idea

A happier place and time?

Okay, I haven't been posting much here lately. When I started this blog I had just been through the first of two layoffs that I have experienced since starting it. My at-the-time girlfriend had just moved to Vermont and I was at home alone. Oh, also there was copious amounts of Seagrams 7 being consumed on a nightly basis, and out of this burgeoning alcoholism, the muse began to speak to me regularly (go figure!). I spent nearly a year trying to decide whether I would move to Vermont where I knew one person, or stay in Atlanta, unemployed, where I knew many more people. Inside my head was a rough place to be, and the battleground that was there, combined with the aforementioned alcoholism, led to reglar blog postings of a cerebral/fantastical/metaphorical nature. I was working a lot of things out, and you guys had to be the victims of that process.

Much has changed in my life. I decided to stay in Atlanta. Found a job at the newspaper in town. Found a new girlfriend. Moved... twice! Went through a tough process of trying to cut down on the sauce, six months of therapy and more. I still struggle with periodic depression goblins and have yet to find that elusive paradise of being. In fact, I have become increasingly concerned that such paradise may not exist at all. Overall, however, I have found some way of making a little sense out of it all. I have found a place, where not always happy, I don't seem to emotionally bounce back and forth all the time.

My friend and sometimes bullpencatcher author, Jeremy, just lauched his personal blog/web site and has been pretty active posting some great stuff there. Through the inspiration of his site and the fact that I have been missing writing a lot, I was pulled back to the bullpen. Through all of the months of inactvity on the blog, I have labored over ideas, felt that I had no time with my ever-expanding work schedule - basically found every excuse not to sit down at the keyboard. The happier place I found myself in didn't seem to make writing as automatic as it was before, and because of that I couldn't find the energy to work at it. I am hoping to change all of that a little now.